Super Busy!
Just wanted to give a quick update…I’ve been super busy as usual and a lack of sleep on top of it all. But I finally have an internet connection in my apartment so I’ve been updating my myspace pics. Well, work just recently pushed me over the edge…I got to a breaking point and I guess I did break. I was so stressed out that I couldn’t sleep, and when I did I had nightmares, and chest pains to top it all off. Mostly because of the head foreign teacher bitching at me every freakin’ day. Excuse the language for those who get offended…but there is no better way to describe it. I’m like the only target for her to pick on, so she has to say something to me everyday, no matter how ridiculous. I pretty much bit her head off, then she got nicer….but she is back to square one again. I think she just tries to make me mad..but you know what? I’m not giving in anymore. There is no reason for me to give her the satisfaction of being mad…then she won, right? Too bad…from now on everything she says to me, I’m just going to nod and smile….because it goes in one ear and out the other. I realized this is the best thing to do since I can’t seem to avoid her, and I was so mad at her that I nearly hit her then left the room. That was it. Not only is she incompetent for her position, but she treats me the worst out of everyone, and is probably one of the most ditzy people I’ve ever met. But that’s ok….because I don’t have to deal with it for much longer, and that is what is getting me through the day. I’ve come to the conclusion that I despise passive aggressive people. I admire people that actually have the COURAGE to say it! If you don’t like me….just tell me, and I can just knock your lights out. haha….just kidding….maybe. ;o) But I really do get along with people better when they are direct…especially bosses.
About my classes-I’ve been getting the hang of them lately, I’ve learned how to bribe the kids enough so they want to pay attention…yesterday I used m&m’s….they liked them so much that they didn’t even want to take a break during class….usually no break is a punishment, but they were so into it that they didn’t want class to end. That made me feel pretty good. But I think it was less me, and more the m&m’s. Well, I’m also starting to adore the kindergarten classes so much more. I have no problem with them, they have really grown on me. Actually…the class that I initially hated I now love. Strange how that works sometimes. I don’t know what it is but I always come up with these last minute ideas in the classroom that work out wonderful. I find that incorporating songs, acting and dancing work wonders. As for the older kids…for some reason I was able to turn around the bad kids and now one of them likes me so much that he wants to sit in front with me! I think because one day he was really bad and I tried everything I could think of to discipline him that I hadn’t tried before…including having a student write a note in chinese to his parents…well the next week he was sick and said he was cold so I gave him my jacket and held him like a baby….ever since then I think he likes me alot more. I’m not sure if it was the discipline part of the motherly part….but whatever it was….it worked. So honestly, I feel a lot more comfortable in my classes now and I have a much better hang of them. The thing that was stressing me out the most was the lady from work. She would just instigate an argument everyday with me….still does, but I just don’t let it bother me anymore. I’ve tried the direct approach with her and it doesn’t work…so now on to the “I secretly want to see her suffer” approach…where I’m polite, but I will do everything in my power to make sure she pays for the way she has treated me. Gosh, I know that sounds awful, but I am just being bluntly honest right now. We all have these feelings, the difference is I’m actually admitting it. I’m not feeling as strongly about punching her in the face anymore as I am about her needing to be replaced at work…she just isn’t capable of her job duties and has caused more confusion and stress than anyone I have ever witnessed. Anywaaaaaaay….man on to a ligher topic!
It will be nice to get back home and live a normal life again. I work so much right now that when the weekends come I have to have some fun or it will just feel like I’m living to work! So, when I get back home the lifestyle will be quite a shock…it will feel like I’ve retired I’m sure.
Lately I’ve been writing more in my journal because of all of this mental stress and emotional stuff going on. I also like to write about my experiences that are actually fun…
Well…that’s all for now. I just wanted to make sure that this page didn’t die from inactivity…and vent some.
